Growing out my hair again. (Taken with instagram)
Actions speak louder than words my love. You are still hundreds of miles away, and at the end of the day, you’re still with him…I wish you could be in my arms too, but in reality. You’re never coming back ): maybe u were drunk texting…I miss you..
This man comes into my job almost every day with a free frosty coupon. He’s homeless, and he’s also of the nicest homeless people that come here. He just made me want to hug him when I saw him mixing ice in what was left of his frosty, just to have a bit more. Smh, I’m giving him another free one. This is saddening me, seriously. I went up to him and offered him one, he smiled and said “naahh” I said you sure? Is there anything I can help you with? He laughed and shook his head in a polite way. One of the most humble people to come through here… Every other one is usually rude, and angry. But this man still keeps his joy. This tells me I should never have a reason to frown, if he can still manage to smile.
This makes me want to cry. )’:
wow, lol i like to read those stuff
As Much…
As much as I want to just call you and yell at you for the way you’ve hurt me. As much as I want to just scream at the top of my lungs and curse and yell out your name to see if you can hear me. As much as I just want to tell everyone how much pain you have caused me, and much as I want to talk bad about you..I can’t…and I wont. Because although you have left me, there was a time where we were real, there was a time where I thought we would have never gotten to this point. A time where we were actually happy together. A time where we were actually in Love. A time where we had that innocence together. A time where were we laughed together. A time where we shared and made memorable memories together in which I will cherish for the rest of my life. And the way I see it, with the bad, there was good. There’s no point of showing anger and hatred to the person who you once called your everything. Your love. Talking bad about them is not going to bring them back. And at one point in time, we were in love. So why talk bad about them? sigh…I still hate you though. And I miss you like crazy still x 100…+1 (our little inside joke)…And it’s so hard letting you go ): Be happy…
#Imnotmakinganysense
#Contradictions
#IhatethatIloveyou
I Still..
Kiss the default picture of her on my phone every night before I head to bed…As much as I want to…as much as I need to…I can’t seem to change the picture to something else…I hope she feels my kiss as she sleeps..
Dear love,
I miss you more and more each day babe ): they say time will heal but it just gets worst and worst as the days go by. I don’t think time will ever heal these deep wounds that have been inflicted in my heart. I see that your happy, and that’s all that’s ever mattered to me. So live a joyful and prosperous life love. You deserve the best, and I’m sorry I couldn’t be the man you wanted. Sorry I wasn’t the one for you, and sorry I couldn’t give to you, what he gives to you. Each day I realize you are really gone and never coming back into my arms, and it kills me everyday. I guess I have to die a thousand times before I can actually try to let you go. If you really love someone/something, you’ll set them free right? So I guess sooner or later im going to have to let you go. Goodbye sweetie ): maybe in another life you’ll be mines…
Realization…
I see you are happier with him…I guess he really is everything you wanted in a man. He has a Job that can support you right now. He’s able to buy you all the things you wanted that I couldn’t afford yet. He’s able to treat you the way I was never able to; like a Princess. And I’m just a poor peasant college student waking up early and slaving away, living off $8.00 an hour. All I have are big dreams ahead of me, when he’s already there. I guess I would have left myself too…Who would want to be with someone like me anyways? A man with only dreams to offer…We’ll I just hope he continues to treat you this way throughout your life. Be happy…
